In the Maze of Life: Embracing Every Chapter at My Own Pace | by Parika Bhatli

Hey everyone! It’s been a while since I wrote my last blog. I have been thinking for a very long time to write and share it, but something or the other happened in life, and it hit me the most that now is the time to write when the festive mode in India started, and my low phase began. It’s been quite a few years. I feel sad during festivities because it may not fit me — the idea of getting ready, celebrating with loved ones or the simple idea of joy. I still get scared of happiness, and my therapist always reminds me that I deserve it, too; I don’t have to be sceptical about it. I am trying really hard to start accepting happiness or the idea of being in the moment and letting it all go… the day, the situation or even the person. I am learning to unlearn my past patterns and especially stop being scared about the happy moments in my life.

It’s just weird how a survivor’s life changes from first questioning your existence to questioning being in the moment. It’s like one has their own maze of thoughts; you sometimes get lost and sometimes find the way out. I am curious to know how different individuals perceive life or the idea of happiness/sadness. Do they define it? Do they chase it? Or accept the way it is? I have started living and accepting what may come, what is there, rather than what is next. Sometimes, I am done being strong or crave to have someone understand me or ask me how I am. Luckily, I have very few individuals with whom I can share what/how I feel. I have finally started sharing my thoughts and telling people how I feel without thinking about what others might /might not believe. I guess I am adulting just fine with the idea of healing from my past traumas and living the life. I want you to know that sharing your struggles is not a sign of weakness but a display of immense courage and strength. It’s okay to be vulnerable, and it’s okay to ask for help.

There are setbacks; there are low days where I remember these beautiful lines I read somewhere — it will pass the good, the bad, the unknown, everything it all passes. Give yourself a second to breathe profoundly and remind yourself that whatever season you are in right now, whatever is happening in your life today, it will pass. Isn’t it a beautiful analogy? Nothing lasts forever; what matters is the part of your journey: follow through. When I was on the verge of giving up, I remember the day my mother told me, Parika, one day you will tell your story of how you overcame what all you went through, and it can be someone else’s survival guide…this conversation keeps me going. It makes me share and write blogs whenever possible because nobody is alone. I repeat, nobody. Remember, your struggles are temporary. They will pass, and you will emerge stronger and wiser.

Even in the most challenging moments, remember: you’re not alone and don’t have to face everything alone. There are people who care, resources that can help, and brighter days ahead. Reaching out might feel hard, but it’s one of the strongest things you can do. Let yourself lean on the support around you — friends, family, or even a counsellor. Your story is still unfolding, and these challenges are just one chapter. Keep going; help is closer than you think, and you are stronger than you feel right now. Healing is the shift from survival to choice. You are more significant than your experiences. I have learnt this, and I hope it helps whoever reads it.

I am still struggling a bit with my inner demons nowadays, but I have realised one thing: The light inside someone who has come through darkness to find their truth is strong and can never be dimmed. After facing their fears and overcoming tough times, they carry a remarkable strength that shines brightly. Their resilience is a guiding light built from hard-earned lessons and courage. With every step they take, they embrace their journey, shining a light that no darkness can touch. Remember that you are stronger than you think, and your resilience shows how powerful you truly are.

I hope this blog encourages you to find your courage and remember that you’re not alone in your struggles. Healing takes time, but every step you take is a testament to your strength. Together, we can support one another on this journey toward brighter days.

I am ending this blog with a beautiful quote –

It’s okay if you’re moving slow, or taking a break entirely. It’s okay to pace yourself and take your time. Sometimes, the only person putting pressure on a situation is you. It’s okay to go a little easier on yourself. It’s okay to be human.
— Charlotte Freeman

Until next time, lots of hope, love, and strength to you